It is hard work to learn a new skill. It's not easy to break old habits. Starting something new requires extraordinary focus and attention. Momentum, on the other hand, requires only a tiny step forward.
It's easy to fantasize that your new resolution will be the magical difference between success and failure, that by deciding to turn over a new leaf, everything will suddenly be new and better for you in the future.
But this approach is going to be a lot harder for you. Things are going to get worse before they get better, because momentum is what moves mountains, not just the first push.
Instead of resolving to chart a whole new course, perhaps all you need is to take the next step from where you are right now. Instead of deciding you need something new and magical and hopeful in your life, maybe you need to do what you already know you should be doing: shuffling along, moving forward, refusing to stop.